I get asked that a lot, do I really believe that life is really dictated by my reaction to the problems that will for sure come up. Typically my life is pretty good. But we all, and I mean all, have these times where its like, C'mon, really, really?! The company I work with has had to restructure, and so far 24 of my co-workers have lost they're jobs in this crappy economy. Yesterday, a long time friend called me to his desk and informed me that Friday was his last day. I understand that a company has to stay healthy, and I understand change is always going to happen. But it hurts when your friends are hurt by this and standing by and watching makes you feel helpless. As I was driving home I really felt bad, or so I thought... When I opened my email my mom had sent a message. Now for most, no biggie, but when my mom uses The Email, its never good. My cousin had tried to kill herself and her 13 year old daughter found her and called the ambulance. Nice for a 13 year old to be dealing with that right?! She is still in the hospital and the fun and always entertaining custody battles have begun for the two kids involved. Like I said, sometimes it's, Really????? Last night I was bummed, just not psyched that so much crap came at once, but today, as I watched the sun rise, I was reminded that I never had control anyway. That the things happening are going to do just that, happen, and then we move on and God will steer me thru them. I don't like what's happened, my heart aches for her kids, and I want her to get the help she so desperately needs, but I know this is all part of a season, a bad one, but one. I pray this moves past quick and we return to some kind of normal, for me, I tuned into the Nitro Circus online and laughed at the stupid human tricks those guys do so well. It made me laugh, and sometimes thats all you can do. Peace, c